abit sad.

I am kind of sad.
And somewhat feeling emo right now.
The news about CheukYing leaving us (and it might be even for good),
makes me feel sad.
I haven't been a really good friend to her.
We don't go out often enough.
urms. actually I think we never really went out tgr before.
sighh..
and now, even though I have more time than I have in the past.
I still am pretty preoccupied with things.
Perhaps, I am really bad at managing my time.
haish.. thus I am no longer in a position to advise/critise people on time management already.
sighhh..
I am not good.

Cheuk just msged me to ask me whether psychology or law suits her more.
I gave her my point of view,
but I didn't mention which suits her.
Just an advice.
Simple one, I hope it really helps.
I realise, I would really really miss her in church.
It's like even though, I am always with FLor's ex cellgroup..
but everytime I go church, she's the only one who greet me with a warm hug.
That always made my day! :)
oh dear.. I feel like crying.

TIME REALLY FILES!

ok. Before I start blogging.
I must thank two important persons.
(according to Flor, there's such thing as "persons",
SO don't correct me!)
I wanna thank KYAW ZIN HTET for helping me,
even though you have an important paper tml!!
and Eugene Toh for that brilliant suggestion! :D
You guys are my HEROES! :DD

okay. My day didn't exactly went all THAT well.
But NEBER MIND!
I am thankful that I had a well-deserved rest! :))
*smiles*

oh! I still have lots of things to accomplish before the year ends!
haha :DD

DA BIAN DA BIAN!

I AM FED-UP!
I am so not going to give a shit if this goes on can!
ARGH!

THINKING :/

Phew!
Finally CAN rest.
I can't believe me and Flor window-shopped
and shopped @ CWP for so long!
From ONE pm till EIGHT pm.
How amazing right?
And the end-results?
Tired legs.
And nopes, I didn't buy anything.
Flor ended up with a bigbig hole in her pocket.
And oh!
THANK YOU FLOR!
for the cap.
I still think it looks nicer on you :D

Good news for the day!
MEOWMEOW PASSED HIS PSLE ON THE DOT!
What a miracle!
haha. and the good thing is, he got promoted.
He called to thank me.
Alas, made me feel guilty.
:P
HEE.

Hmm..
Had been thinking about something since last night.
Something said by this character in the Channel 8 show,
and something else someone said,
triggered off my thinking.
yes, I know I think too much at times.
But I can't help it :/

A question to those who are in a relationship,
and those who are going to enter into one in the future..
Why are you (or Why would you want to be) in a relationship?
This is not a mere question to just ponder over the cause of you being in a relationship.
But rather, what you expect of it.
Think about it.
you would be able to understand yourself better :))

PAUL!

HEY!
PAUL!
WE WILL MISS YOU!
TAKE LOTS OF CARE! :))

(and he just went offline, just as I posted this :S)

thoughts.

Just woke up.
I'm sleeping lesser and lesser by the day man.
So deprived of a long, good rest.
Oh dear :S

Update on Yesterday.
Went over to find Jer.
He brought Bobby out when he came to pick me up lah.
And Bobby as usual was so high that he kept tip-toeing on my thighs.
And as a result, I had and stil have lots of scratches :'(
Watched The Prestige @ his place.
haha. Cool show.
No wonder he likes it so much.
Went for dinner after which.
Then went find his fwens.
Then he sent me back.
End of story.
hahaha.

Ok. Here's the main point.
Just now when I woke up,
I did some blog-hopping.
Then something came to mind.
Gene's discussion with me, last night.
sorry ah gene.
It usually takes time for things to get sink into my brain,
THEN I'll read into it.
Esp things, I have not given much thoughts into them.
Actually I DO agree with what Gene says.
Ok. Our discussion isn't any BIG secret between us.
We were talking about the maintenance of friendship.
And most probably, I'm guilty of some/ if not all parts that we mentioned.
Haha. I haven't been a great friend for as long as I lived.
But on second thoughts, I do TRY to make it a point to be there for those who need me.
I suppose so?

Hehs.
Seriously lah, I think me, Flor, Gene believes the same thing.
(though I may not be able to do all of it. but I do TRY!) :S
Ok, I believe that friendship maintenance is for forever.
It's a long term commitment,
like any B-G relationships you get yourself into.
(maybe for some, it's not the case)
Someone once told me that he found the friendship maintenance a very tough challenge to keep to
esp when you're a super busy person.
But I must say, it's even tougher for people in relationships.
'Cause they have three commitments to keep to in all.
Their Family, Friends, plus the Other Half.
And dun forget, we all still have the study/work commitment as well.
Oh dear.. What busy beings we all are!
But the thing is, everyone goes through the same thing.
We should never be too busy for our friends.
At least, that's what I've learnt since my last breakup.
Friends are the ones there to help you and get you back up on your feet.
Yes. We've our other halves that we have to commit our time to.
So does that mean friends don't matter anymore?
So you're willing to sacrifice friends just for ONE guy/girl who might or
MIGHT NOT be the one?
And when something really happens,
you might even realise there is no one there by your side.

Personally, I do not like those lamentings about not meeting up and stuffs.
It's like we have the invention of the HANDPHONE.
that you cld use to call and ask people out or even to catch up.
Eugene.. You have the rejection limit.
I think I have one that goes with yours.
Mine is called the Initiation Ceiling.
Like Gene, one gets tired when that one person is always doing the job.
seriously, the way friendship works, is a mutual thing.
It goes two ways.
And if it works, it goes a LONG LONG way :))

Gona do something about my life

today's a tiring day.
Brought Yin Ying for swimming.
And it poured.
But we swimswim till the lifeguard "beep"-ed at everyone.
Haha.. Then we went CauseWay point to eat and walkwalk around.
Then I sent her home.
She's a happy girl :))

and when I was home,
I watched "the wedding date" in my subconscious state of mind.
Was thinking about alot of things..
Random thoughts..plus the rainy day.
Made me really emo.
I need and want a future tense.
:S

haha

Congratulations to FLORENCE SIEW YU MIN!
on finishing her LINGUISTICS paper! :DD
so happy for you :)))

happyhappy day

It's a happyhappy day!
wheeeeeee!
It actually feels really good.
It's been so long since I last felt this way.
THANK YOU BOYFRIEND!
you made my day today! ^^

Me went to find my boyfriend at twelve on the dot.
THEN, we went to have lunch with someone who offended me this morning.
Wasn't very willing de.
But must give my boyfriend face mahs.

After lunch, we ran errands for his mummy.
then we went for BEE movie.
like FINALLY! :S
it's such a cute movieee!! ^^
*happyhappygrin*
After which, we rushed for Stardust.
Hmm.. Stardust was enchanted enough bahs.
Good storyline :)
I enjoyed it :D

Jer wanted to send me home.
But after we passed the msia customs,
I realised that his autopass wasnt in its original place.
And we had to trouble his parents to get it from his mummie's shop.
BOYFRIEND! you cannot be so insistent all the time de!
You know that I do not like troubling people :S
then when we finally reached spore,
we went to eat our favourite food!! :D
The usual.
yummielicious!! :)))

I am really really happy today.

:)

I'm smiling again ;)
hee..
today's service was great!
the sermon message was strong :)
It did me good :)
And! and! Carrola (duno if I spelt her name correctly) has a fabulous voice! :)
so much power and sounds so NICE!
:)

went to the book fair.
Walked ard for an hour or so.
Wanted to get nice non-fiction general books.
But, NO HAF!
So I ended up with three fiction novels.
ENGLISH LEH ( cause no have nice chinese ones :p)
Got one of my newly-bought novels, I actually bought it for its title.
I tot it was rather sweet a title.
it is titled " The Man who Fell in Love with His Wife".

after which, I went to meet eugene.
We sneaked into The Warren and Northvale to slot the flyers into letterboxes.
Very HOT and TIRING.
oops. I shouldn't be whining.
At least, I wasn't doing it alone.
:)
Then me and gene popped by at BABA's place.
despite knowing that she's sleeping.
evil me :p

Eugene just sent me my favourite song in college!
It's one of the songs I really liked,
for its catchy tune and crappy but sweet lyrics!! ^^
no kidding! :)
"You're my ice kachang.....
In this Tropical Heat... "
But I like the verses before the chorus TOO!
those are the great part :)
Somehow, while I was walking down memory lane,
as I listen to this song..
an idea came into my mind.
HEE..
Think about having your college friends coming together to perform this song on your special day :)
It's a sweet and touching scene right? :)))

not so happy day.

it's a not so happy day.
I feel sad, in fact.
perhaps, disappointed is a better word to describe.
I am tired.
I need a rest...
a good good rest..

WEDNESDAY

it's a Wednesday!
haha..
Later going out with my tuition girlgirl.
Then need to go collect the $$ from the troublesome auntie,
who has been pissing gene and gimsiong off recently.
I would really like to see how she look like man.

I am a happy happy girl.
you know why?!
'Cause I have chocolates to eat.
Wheeeeeeeee..
Jer's mummie bought the chocolates for me!
haha.. I don't know why also.
But it's DARK BITTER CHOCOLATE!
*loves*
Bet it's cause of jerjer's influence that everyone thinks I am an bitter chocolate addict :D
wells.. maybe I am, just dun nid to say out de :S
HEE..

:))) we should all be happy!

Been home for the whole day.
It feels so good to be able to stay home and just slack.
I guess, I just needed a good rest bah.
Oh wells.. Work will start tml.
and quoting Gene : " HUAT AH"
:))

Most of my dear friends are busy at the battlefield of examinations.
ALL THE BEST TO YOU PEOPLE!
GAMBATE NE! ^^

whilst people are fighting battles..
the guys are depressed at NS.
random people like me slacking..
and at times, we get dejected..
we get emotional..
we get moody..
we feel deprived..

But sometimes, we just need to remind ourselves..
that we should be happy :)

Now ask yourself,
when's the last time you ever had a good laugh?
when's the last time you look to the sky and smiled?
when's the last time you look at your parents,
and noticed a few more wrinkles they have?
when's the last time you gave someone a real warm hug?
when's the last time you cooked for someone you loved?
when's the last time you gave yourself a pat on the back?
when's the last time you looked in the mirror and liked what you see?
when's the last time you liked yourself for who you are?

Nownow..yes, we've all grown up.
But all those, are mere simple happiness..
we shouldn't deprive ourselves, and the people ard us of.
These simple happiness have always been in us.
It's just that, we sometimes lose ourselves...
we sometimes forget the innocent child in us..
We must learn to love ourselves for who we are..
and remember the simple happiness that made us smile..
Remember the first bite of icecream you had?
Remember the burst of rainbow that you've seen?
Remember your first kiss?
Remember that one hug you miss?
We should really be happy :)))

:)

Yesterday was like the perrrrrrrrrrfect day :)
*smiles*
finally I am free from commitments to the Taiwanese.
and I went on a date with Boyfren.
Game Plan was good.
Hilarious, yet heartwarming.
great show! ^^
then me and boyfren went to buy icecream from Meifeng.
Wheeee.. I was having craving for chocolate icecream, that's why.
Then, me and boyfren went shengshiong to find jelly powder for his mummie.
but we cldn't find any.
So ended up, he took a couple of random boxes,
whilst I grabbed my stuffs.
and off we went HOME.
haha.. the sad thing is, I'll only get to see him nxt saturday.
He is STARTING work nxt monday!
Jer!! JIAYOU!! ^^

if you think it, you can get it...

If you think it, you can get it...
:)

Contentment :S

was walking alone on my way home just now.
And I started thinking about things.
I thought about how contented I am with my life now.
As in, the extent of my contentment ( if there's ever such a word).
I thought about what people always say,
the older we gets, the less easily contented we get.
perhaps, that's true for most cases.
but sometimes, just a small note would just make me smile :)

BUBBLY! :)

I changed my blog song le!
Jer introduced to me de.
It's SO NICE can!
it's my new favourite song too!
*melts as the music plays*
I'm so in love with this song! :)

Here's the lyrics to "Bubbly"
I love the lyrics too
BOYFREN!
I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU SHARED THIS NICEEE SONG WITH ME!
*loves*

I've been awake for a while now
You make me feel like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

It starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I going to say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it stats in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

Wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

:S

I was happy in the morning.
because I helped someone cross the road with the shelter of my umbrella.
But now, I am sad.
Something I've always been looking forward,
is disappearing.
Sad. There should be a way out.
I am looking for it.
still..

Happy 22 mthsery to US!

Happy 22th Monthsery to us! :)

hmm.. my boyfriend is now rushing out his assignment.
my poor boy.
He must be under so stress now. :S

time really flies.
I still can't believe that,
in another two months' time, we'll be TWO!
whoa.. it's amazing, isn't it?

Recently, something has been knocking on the door to my mind and heart.
actually, it's alot of things lah.
but yups.
things that were preached during the last sermon,
and something someone said.
The other day, flor's fren, chan tong was saying that,
he's turning twenty years, think nxt year?
and i was like, "good what! know how you're going to celebrate yet?"
but something he replied, hit me hard.
'cause I had the same thoughts before.
and still having, just that, I haven't been constantly reminding myself.
He replied,"but, I feel as though I haven't really achieved anything in these twenty years that I've been living."

wellwell.. I'm pretty sure most people at one point of their lives,
would have pondered over this.
If you've pondered over this,
what've you done about it?
And if you've not done anything about it,
better start moving now, before you realise that time has already flown past you.

as I've said earlier, something said during last sermon,
has been on my mind.
and I really want to be a star thrower! :)
hee.. let me inspire you with the story.
perhaps, you've already heard of it.
I had long ago, even before the sermon.
but hearing it again at this age and at that moment, impacted me much more.
perhaps, everyone of us needs a reminder from time to time.
and you'll be amazed at the impact of it in your life.
Trust me :)

And here goes, (but let me warn you, I'm a bad storyteller)

once, in a village by the sea,
there was this boy who was always by the seaside.
There were many starfishes washed ashore and left stranded
whenever there came the low tides.
And the boy would gently pick up one starfish and throw it back into the sea.
then another.. then another.. then another..
At one point of time, there came this person,
who didn't understand the boy's behaviour at all,
He asked, "why are you doing this?
Look at the whole stretch of starfish across the shoreline!
Do you think you'll be able to save them all?
And even if you do, you would take a very very long time!"
The boy smiled and gently picked up another starfish,
threw it back into the sea,
and he said, "I know.. but at least to that one starfish I threw back into the sea,
I made a difference."

I think we all should be a starthrower.
And make a difference in someone's life.
even if it's just one person.
it'd probably mean alot to that person.
:)

post-loreal hair seminar

okay. People! I'm back.
This is a post loreal hair-seminar update.
If you ain't interested,
you may SHOO >.<
hehe.

okay. so the story of a brave girl goes.
I'm not being BHB lorhs.
I really am!
I was still on the train at novena when the client called.
and I tot I was late.
so the moment I alighted,
I ran like a mad woman in the midst of walking working people all the way.
then, I saw this girl strolling.
she's one of the models for the day's show as well.
and she said that we werent late.
Thank God!

and so, we arrived at our destination,
the artistes' makeup cum dressing room.
and found two other our people and a new japanese girl there.
then the horror of it all came.
this girl called collete,
she is oso one of the girls who said she didnt mind having the hair cut short.
and the japanese cut it REAL short!
it's like a boy hairstyle lo!
BUT! with a fringe about 3cm above the brows.
oh mans.. I was there fearing for my hair.
then went to get changed.
changing is a chore for us man.
being a middle-sized model while the rest is small-sized models.
i had to keep changing my costumes cause they cant fit.
so, in the end I got the dress I wanted.
and! PURPLE STOCKINGS!

and the japanese KEN-SAN helped me curl my hair lo.
whilst it's stil long.
hee..
and at this moment, I heard the loreal staff talking very angrily to two girls.
the girls looked like though they were goin to cry,
cause they were scared to get that short a haircut.
ya.. So the loreal staff can't take it.
so send them home packing lo.
and I was the only one left doing the short haircut LAH!
see! I am SO brave lo! so I went ard taking photos whilst my hair is stil long.
haha.

show began.
and I was the first to solo out
and stand onstage,
to get my hair cut.
it was cool lah.
but at the same time, because you can't really see yourself.
and I was curious to know what my hairstyle was.
but the moment I returned to the dressing room, the girls were all saying my hairstyle looks really great.
wahaha. I like it too! :D
but there is only one pain, my feet were hurting, 'Cause the shoes were too TIGHT!

the finale was a great experience.
all of us tot we cld leave the stage le.
all the photographers blocked our way.
and all the flashlights flashing.
have to keep smiling and all.
and got some even requested that we turned in all angles for them to take the photographs.
got some hairstylists came on stage and behind us to feel our hair -__-
it's not like we are those mannequins can!! :S
haha. But it's was fun.
I was glad that I didn't fall flat on my face with the heels.
the heels were even higher than those I usually wore.
coolahs! :D

thank the jap with the help of the nice translator.
and went to the agency.
my agents cld recognise me.
with the makeup and hair.
haha.. Went to take more photos.
but only ONE was really good, I must say.
it's so sensual. HEEX.

yup-ped. I like the turn-out of my hair for yesterday.
that is before wash.
cause the haircut was meant to be styled and permed that way.
but if left unstyled, it's just short hairstyle.
just really short. :S